Happy New Year! And not only a new year but a new decade. 2019 was a year of stretching and trusting. Teenaged boys have given me a lot of practice in learning how to trust God.
My One Word for 2019 was LIVE.
I thought my word would have me focusing on choosing to live in each moment instead of looking too far ahead and managing my days rather than living out the moments of my days.
But, God has ways of bringing out other facets from the lessons we think we’re going to learn.
In the year where my word was LIVE, two unexpected deaths kind of rocked my world. On Jan 6th last year, a good friend and her husband lost their daughter unexpectedly. This twenty-one-year-old woman had a passion for people and for travel. Her death was a stark reminder that we don’t know the number of our days.
In September my father-in-law passed away unexpectedly. I struggled with this. And, yes, I may have told God he didn’t give this strong, quiet man enough days.
But God . . . He knows the number of days we each get. The truth I’ve taken from these passings is that I want to live each day well, to be open to conversations, to opportunities to encourage others to draw closer to the Lord. I want to live each day well.
During 2019, God brought me face-to-face with disappointment, and how I allow it to impact me. In walking through some disappointments, I grappled with the role humility plays . . . and with the pride that’s still rooted in my heart.
Sometimes discovering how to really live means learning how to die to ourselves and allowing God to deal with pride.
In learning to live, I’m learning to surrender my expectations, my desires to God . . . to trust Him when the disappointments come.
Disappointments have a way of revealing what’s really in our hearts. He also showed me I was seeking affirmation from people. But, as I’ve written (and I had to be reminded), seeking affirmation from humans always leads to disillusionment.
When I seek affirmation in accomplishments, I’ll be disappointed when they don’t yield what I expected.
But, God’s already given us all the affirmation we need. When we seek Him, we’ll know His pleasure—His delight—because we’re His kids. When my eyes are on Him, I can live more freely because I’m not tied to people-pleasing.
I’m a “One Word” gal, rather than a New Year’s Resolution gal. I’m always surprised at how God brings these words to life in my heart. These are my previous words:
As 2019 came to a close, I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that our oldest graduates from high school in a year-and-a-half. As crazy as life gets, I want to be intentional about engaging with both of our sons.
My Word for the year is:
As I’ve prayed about my focus verse for the year, I keep coming back to the phrase to fix my eyes, my heart, my thoughts on Jesus. Because really, whatever we’ll face this year, I need to look to Him, not myself. My verse for the year is:
In the verses I prayed over, they all seemed to tie in with this one. When I choose to set the Lord before me, I’m choosing to trust Him. Making the decision to always look to him, I have the confidence and the peace that He’s always present with me.
I want to walk through the unexpected happenings and life lessons trusting in the Lord and resting in His presence. I want to make the necessary choices to be present in my boys’ and husband’s lives this year.
What about you? Do you focus on goals and resolutions, do you focus on one word, or is there another way you like to begin the year? If you focus on One Word, what is yours for this year?
PS—I have jury duty today (Tuesday), so I will respond and visit during the week as I have time. Thanks for your understanding!
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