I promised myself I was not going to do it again this year. I always come to December First, determined to not let my calendar get the best of me. Determined to make Jesus the center of all I do.
Almost without fail, I enter into Christmas morning, weary. Not excited to create a special breakfast for my family. Opening presents? Sure it’s great, but then there’s the dish to prepare for that evening’s celebration with my family, an hour away.
I’m so weary from the doing that when it comes to serving my family, to celebrating Jesus with them, it can feel mundane. My heart is not in a place of preparedness to celebrate Jesus. My body and soul are tired.
This year, I told myself I wasn’t going to be twirled around by the schedule. That I would have a heart that shares still moments with Jesus. That I would walk in His peace. So far, I haven’t done a good job of this. Over the weekend, I prayed about the churning in my spirit, and God showed me I need to simplify.
We’ve got most of our Christmas decorations up, but the house is still a mess, as the collage shows. My house is such a picture of how my life feels right now. There are glimpses of beauty in the midst of the clutter. Peeks at rest amid the busy.
I want to walk into the rest of this season not busy “doing Christmas.” Instead, my desire is to purpose to “be” with Jesus as I walk through my days. Not so worried about my to-do lists that I miss out on laughter with the boys, a cuddle with my honey. A still heart when I spend time with Jesus reading His word.
I want to truly meditate on the gift Jesus has given each of us—Himself. I don’t want to miss out on communion with Him.
That being said, I am taking the rest of the month off to simplify and be more fully in the moments that lead up to Christmas day. I’ll be back in January.
I know Christmas can be a trying season—either because of loss, or hard memories. My prayer for each of you is that you will know Jesus’ presence in this season. May it be one that holds rest amid the busy-ness, and joy in the difficult moments that can creep in during this season.
What about you? How do you balance the doing and the being of Christmas? What’s your favorite or funniest memory of Christmas?